morale down 68 days left

dear diary,

i dont know where to start. what i know is, now my heart is breaking into pieces. it's painful. i am at home now..

last Monday mother admitted in Pantai Hosp, Batu Pahat. 6 days mother in hospital. i managed to accompany her for 4 days and nights. due to surgery, mother needed more rest and support.

alhamdulillah, i always there for her.

however, this morning mother told me that it's painful at her open surgery section. we surprised that, it's bleeding O_O" ya Allah! only Allah knows our feelings!

now, father has taking mother to Pantai Hosp, Batu Pahat to see her specialist. what making me burst my tears is when i was alone at mother's room. i see her last shirt, kain batik, her bed.. Ya Allah.. i cant help myself.

in fact.. i was crying (again) at this moment. Ya Allah.. please help us. guide us. i hope mother will recover very soon. i cant see mother's condition..

i never cries in front of mother. i pretend that everything is ok. actually, i was not. i am not strong enough to see all these. Ya Allah.. Ya Allah.. helps my family Ya Allah..

in this situation, my morale is down. i never touches anything regarding on the diy projects thingy. hurm.. i am try but i cant. it's hard.

life is different now. i wish to see my healthy mother, energetic super mom! >__<"

i dont know how is life without mother. i am so grateful that i am still have a mother. Ya Allah please.. help my mother.

friends.. please.. pray for my mother.. i cant stop crying. oh, i am so down.

p/s: it was 68 days to go. please.. please.. get well soon mother. we needs you.

yours truly,