my adorable father

assalamualaikum.

morning all.
i dedicated this entry special to my adorable man no. 1 in this rest of my life, father. i am grateful cause father is my father. yes, let me called him as father.

father is the best father that i ever had. cause i dont have any father except him. ok, next year i will have a father in law. talk about him later.

i do remember when i was 5, we loves to play hide and seek. almost every day. it's really fun. most of the time, father will hide under his bed T_T i know his tricks ord!

i enjoy being his one and only child for 6 years, 9 months and 20 days. i is father's baby girl. seriously, when i close my eyes i can remember all sweet memory. thank you father.

until, my lil sister born. i was thinking that father doesnt like me any more. we didnt play hide and seek at all. father spend all his time with my lil sister. i dislike her. i is jealous.

time flies.

when i was in secondary school, i still remember father scolded me cause i dont know who called me late at night. i rarely give my house phone number to boys cause i know my parents dislike it. 1st and last. it's painful when misunderstanding occurred.

i started avoid myself to father. we just talk if there is important thing to say/ inform. it's awkward. but, it's true. we rarely chat about personal life. sigh.

i dont understand father. i dont have any sweet memories with father except past 6 years, 9 months and 20 days. father is ego. so, do i. he always made his own final decision w/out let me stand my points. this is one and only thing that i never agree with father.

what ever it is, he still my father.

until, last 2008 my very 1st time introduced my sweetheart to my parents. father shown his protest. none realized it. but, i know him very much. sigh. know what, i am afraid to talk about my sweetheart. the worst part is i never ever talk about my sweetheart in front of my father.

cause.. confirm he will protest. hurm.

i dont have brothers. i dont know how exactly different gender express their feelings. act, my father is ok. but when it comes to ' bf-gf', 'couple' or 'serious relationship' thingy he will being weird. or.. i just weird cause i am too afraid of him. what ever.

until..

a day before Feb Mission 2011 we never discussed anything at all. i just share everything to mother. in fact, father gave his full of commitment too but (again) i feel awkward to discuss about it with him. fine, who is weird now. father or me?? both are ego. huhu.

it's hard to explain the complication of feelings. complicated T_T

however, i am grateful that a week after Feb Mission 2011 things have been changed. father interested to join us for catering and event setting discussion. well, as usual he will always want to win in every discussion.

i just dont mind. cause he never protest. he cooperate very well. he share his best idea and advices. ya Allah, you just send me my father's back. this is my father that i miss last 19 years 4 months and 20 days.

i love you father. you are always be my adorable father.

p/s: based on the true story.

yours truly,